First things first: Two months until Christmas! Ho! Ho! Ho!
The whole idea of blogging is to write at least a few lines on a regular basis. I get it; and even knowing this, I've been a bad, bad blogger.
There aren't any excuses to explain it away. I think I already mentioned that I don't like to be the center of attention - which might make anyone ask why in the world I chose to blog?
Good question. Really, good question. While I think some of it has to do with that, the other is I am in such a quandary. I don't know where I am in life, and that confuses & puzzles me. Everything just seems to be scattered. I don't know how to explain it. I don't think it's suppose to be explainable. How can you make sense on anything that has so many open-ended questions?
There aren't any excuses to explain it away. I think I already mentioned that I don't like to be the center of attention - which might make anyone ask why in the world I chose to blog?
Good question. Really, good question. While I think some of it has to do with that, the other is I am in such a quandary. I don't know where I am in life, and that confuses & puzzles me. Everything just seems to be scattered. I don't know how to explain it. I don't think it's suppose to be explainable. How can you make sense on anything that has so many open-ended questions?
Someone sent me a link to a breast cancer website, & I realize it was sent to me with good intentions; it ended up depressing me. You decide . I have not read it. I don't want to read it.
I meet with my oncologist tomorrow afternoon. We scheduled my Vampire day at hematology just before the doctor's appointment. Tomorrow I should learn about the bone density scan & see if the tumor is shrinking (I think it is). I have a lot of questions. I really like this doctor, & as much as I hate going to the doctor's, I'm looking forward to this visit.
I've been taking my cancer drug 29 days now. I think the tumor is shrinking. The tumor just may have moved around a little or maybe it's my imagination, but I am sure hoping to learn it is a little smaller. Wouldn't that be great? The biggest side effect I have with this drug so far, is the hot flashes. I actually feel as if I'm sitting next to a furnace. I do itch, and I've lost head hair, though my hair was thinning even before taking this drug. But it does seem as if I'm losing more than I was before. Who knows? The hot flashes will come in handy this winter.
I have to hand it to my son. He is with me for each of my appointments. I am thankful for his support, but I worry about becoming a burden. I have to eat before they Vampire my blood, so we'll have brunch out at the Cracker Barrel. I'm hoping for pancakes & bacon. Mmmm ....
